Should I or shouldn't I?

This is the cake I made for my son for his birthday. The cars are also edible, made from scratch using my sons toys as models.

I'm thinking of perhaps having a side biz making specialty cakes like this. What do you think?

Our kids are stupid....

...because, despite having a free, public school system, there is no room/$ for the fundamental schooling they could get from Kindergarten.

I'm stressing right now over the fact that, in order to make ends meet, I need to work. However, our local Elementary school only has ONE (1) full day Kindergarten class. And that class will be filled at 22 kids. THEN, there is only an AM Kindergarten. PM Kindergarten is not an option.

Oh and did I mention that the after school program is not really an AFTER SCHOOL program. It starts at 3. So if my kid is in AM Kindergarten, there is nowhere to send him after school while I'm at work. There is kind of a PM K, but it's only for Special Education students (who are probably getting their education subsidized even further by state grants).

My only other option for full day Kindergarten is to send him to a parochial school and pay tuition. And I'm not even at permanent job (I'm only temping - it's the only thing I could find in this economy right now). So I may not even have a job come September. So if I pay the deposit for the parochial school and send him there, then how am I supposed to pay for it if I don't have a job (or a paying-enough job) by then?

This is so flippin crazy!

at least if the school had a PM Kindergarten, I'd be able to do something PT, since he could participate in the afterschool program. But NOOOOOOO! Why couldn't they put the special kids in the morning?!!!

And to top it all off, we won't know WHICH (AM or full day) he gets into until August - just before school starts. It seems the administrators need some SPECIAL education!

I'm so frakkin PO'd about all this! UGH!!!!!

AMBER ALERT

I've confirmed with snopes.com and the following is a true Amber Alert. Unfortunately, it's been in effect for about 2 years. Hopefully, by posting it on a blog where many people can (hopefully) see it, it just might help find this little girl.

http://www.snopes.com/inboxer/missing/reachelle.asp

Random Ramblings

This is probably one of many ramblings about nothing. My socks keep falling down and almost off in my boots. It's so irritating. I'm not even walking around. I'm just sitting here and the next thing I know, my sock is bunched up in the ball of my foot. So I have to take off my boot, fix my sock, and put my boot back on. And my feet don't smell nice when they're in my boots, so it's a potentially embarrassing situation when it happens at work.

Thank goodness for CBS airing its full episodes online. I somehow managed to miss Jericho this week. I keep forgetting that it's on after The Biggest Loser on Tuesday nights. I was able to plug in my headphones and watch/listen to it while I took care of some administrative stuff here at work. it certainly helped the time go by. I love what I do, but sometimes the little things can get a bit mundane. So having that access was cool. I just wish I could access YouTube. I'd be laughing all day!

I really want to win the lottery, but I don't have the money to spend on the tickes? (which is where the lottery would be extremely helpful!) Can anyone assist with that and make sure I win?

I was so tempted to contact that couple in GA that won the $270M jackpot. My request would only be a drop in the bucket (mere pennies compared to their winnings). But then I thought about all the tax repercussions, etc. and it seemed like more work. I'd rather just win the money. LOL!

Sick Day

Today was a sick day. My son has a cold and we went to the doctor's to get it checked out. Nothing serious. I could have gone back to work, but he was still coughing a bit, so decided to stay home.

It's funny that when you first decide to stay home for a day - a million things run through your mind that you want to do: dishes, laundry, vacuuming, or even working on a hobby. It's now late afternoon and the one thing I've done today is SLEEP. It wasn't a completely zonked out kind of sleep, cuz I still had the dude to take care of. But he's old enough that he can play and I can take a snooze on the couch in the same room.

So much for having HIM rest at home!

So now that I've had my power nap, I'm mulling around all the things that I should be doing since I'm home and now have a couple hours left to my sick day before "real time" catches up to me. And of course, instead of doing all those things or even starting them, I'm procrastinating on this blog. AHHHHH... another distraction.

Oh well... I guess I better get back upstairs and at least clean the kitchen.

What I'm watching...

The Biggest Loser - LOVE IT! I love Bob and Jillian. I'm glad they got rid of the blonde chick, Kim. She was nagging and obnoxious. Plus she kept regressing to low behavior like cursing at the houseguests. There are other ways to relate to people on their level. Every week these people inspire me to do better.

If they can lose 100+ pounds in just 4 months, then i should be able to lose 60 in a year...

Lost Theories

Ok. There's so much to think about when it comes to this show. The writing and the dialogue are just amazing!!! I wish I could be that creative and imaginative.

So here are my thoughts on this latest episode about kate:

Aaron appears to be about 2-3 years old. So how long have they been off the island at the point of the trial? Aaron was about 3m old in the flashback/island time. So that leaves me to wonder the time lapse between the trial and Jack's breakdown.

I do wonder who will make up the 8 - even if it IS all a lie (according to jack's testimony). I'm wondering who they will say the other two were...

And of course, I'm wondering what happened on the island to everyone else when we KNOW that 40 people survived the crash, but Jack's story says only 8. hmmmm....

television that really makes you think and stretch your imagination is absolute genius. I LOVE it!

I work only to pay for daycare so I can work.

I don't know how some people do it... The public school system in our area has ONE full day Kindergarten class in my district's elementary school. And it's lottery based up to 22 kids. So then all the other kids are put in 1/2 day classes. And the school system happily provides afterschool care BUTTTTTTTT only from 3pm. So for all those 1/2 day kindergarteners who REALLY need the afterschool care and are not at an age that can be left alone or be a latch key kid..... there's NOTHING!

This is so freakin aggravating.

It's likely my son will be in one of the 1/2 day programs. I can only hope it's the afternoon so that I can at least have him in the afterschool care and possibly be able to work part time.

Otherwise, I'm forced to have him in daycare or some sort of extended care for even longer so that I can work all day just to pay for the extended care. Ugh!

Is there nothing affordable in this world? We need for me to work at least part time. I'm gonna do the Independent consultant thing again, but I can't totally rely on it, particularly if I need to do something like 10-15 demos in a month just to break even. It's heartbreaking. I'd never see my family cuz my weekends would be filled.

This is why our kids can't read. It's not that Kindergarten doesn't teach them, it's just that there's not enough Kindergarten to go around. So of course they can't read in 1st grade. If I have to choose between working so we can eat and sending him to 1/2 day kindergarten and staying home, then there's really no choice. I'm fortunate that I might be able to send him to a parochial school for Kindergarten that has a full day and afterschool care. But then I still have to find the job, too, now. I was hoping to be able to cut back to part time and be home a little bit, but not to the point where I'm off the market.

9-11:30 does not make for good part time work!

it's hopeless. I'm so friggin upset. I have to find SOMETHING! gosh this really sucks...

October Spice Kit - BONUS sketch! - Scrapdango Gallery

October Spice Kit - BONUS sketch! - Scrapdango Gallery

This is a cool layout from ScrapDango.com. I love sketches!!! This will be cool to duplicate in my albums.

One Step forward...

I feel like I'm coming out of the hole today. Still no exercise this week, but I've been getting more sleep and feeling more energized again. I also tracked everything yesterday and noticed that I'm WAYYYY under range. So that could be part if it too. I may be going way over or way under and not being consistent.

And the last few weeks, I was also not sticking to my personal rule of not eating after 7pm. Last night I stuck to my rule, and I'm feeling better this morning too.

So now I still need to plan the meals a bit better for the next week, plus get in my exercise again, and I'll be back on track.

It's so hard. Some people just don't understand just how difficult it really is to lose weight. Or they don't understand that it really does consume your day. Every minute of the day seems to be focused on what I'm eating - is it enough, is it too much? did I exercise today? if not, when will I fit it in? It seems like simple math - the less that goes in and the more energy you expend = weight loss. But there's so much more mentally involved. I can't explain why, but sometimes it's like a brick wall preventing me from meeting my goal.

It's too high, so I have to build steps to get over it and then how do I get down? it's scary. It's a big leap to take. and often that leap is scarier than the journey.

I have no idea what life will be like when I reach my goal weight. Will I turn shallow and materialistic? I hope not. Will I still be consumed with how I look? probably. These are some of the other questions that get in my way and make me start panicking.

But for now, I have to just take it one step at a time.... FORWARD.

money musings

I have to buy my lottery tickets today. I know.. they really are such a waste of money, but the chance of being a winner just sucks me right in. I don't normally play. But when there's a large sum, i generally get in on the action.

i used to think that I wouldn't quit working if I won the lottery, but lately, i've changed my mind. there are so many other FUN things to do in life. perhaps I might try working for myself and finding a hobby that would bring in a few bucks here and there, but for the most part, just bring me enjoyment. that would be a really nice change.

Welcome to More Than Me

After much thought and consideration, I've decided to consolidate my various blog postings into one place. It has become rather unmanageable to blog at so many places to which I'm a member. So here I am.

There is so much more to me.